Monday, August 3, 2009

Love Notes

Recently I have had a lot of chances to meet new guys - go out on dates with them; maybe see a movie, and eventually get to do what people who don’t have to worry about getting the other person pregnant do. I also had a chance to bond with better people and real friends, who have and still are a big help whenever I needed a sounding board, especially whenever I attempt to make sense, or worse, justify, my actions. It was because of one of these very recent discussions that I am writing this note about love and the many variations of its definition. I have read a lot of definitions of love and have heard a lot of people define how love is for them. I realized that through the years, my definition of love (and relationships) has evolved, and that whatever current definition of love I had at that time depended largely on whether or not I was going out with someone.

After lying here in bed for hours I finally realized that because of the current state of my love (or relationship) life, I see love as not blindly wanting to be with a person because I “love” him, but because we fit. I see love as not so much compromise as it is a partnership of sorts – a medium where two different (sometimes very different) people make the mutual decision to be together, not because it’s convenient or ideal, but because they WANT to.

Maybe when I’m part of a relationship again my perspective will change. I am certainly known for switching ideas at the drop of a hat or for batting for the other team. But for right now, this is how I look at what love is and how relationships are built out of it.

So Close

You’re in my arms, and all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together and when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by, romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know, all that I wanted to hold you so close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
Now you’re beside me, and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

Oh, how could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?

We’re so close to reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close, so close and still so far

Monday, April 13, 2009

First day of the week. This Monday is the first Monday after Lent so officially I am supposed to snap out of my vacation mode and realize that the tax deadline of the IRS is this Wednesday, so I need to step up my game and finish any other pending 1099 items that require my resolution.

I am also on my way back to the gym, after being away for almost 5 days.

Things to come: general apartment clean-up and killer exercise moves to target the abs and lower back area.

My first post

Yes, this is my first live post on my new web log. Officially though this is not my first time ever, as I have always kept a personal journal on the Spaces website.

It has always been my personal belief that blogging is a writer’s 15 minutes of fame (minimum time may change, depending on length of entry!) on the internet, and that with fame comes a lot of personal responsibility, akin to great power (*grins). Because of this I have always kept my personal thoughts secret, because of the amount of public scrutiny I know my writings will be subjected to. This has recently changed because of the amount of fun I have been having on Facebook – seeing as how people actually respond and connect through the millions of posts and comments that are generated and shared across millions of members that are in one way or another connected.

So here I am, a little late perhaps in catching the blog bug, but looking forward to making up for lost time. To quote a famous Filipino phrase:

“Huli man at magaling, maihahabol din.”

- J

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