Love Notes
Recently I have had a lot of chances to meet new guys - go out on dates with them; maybe see a movie, and eventually get to do what people who don’t have to worry about getting the other person pregnant do. I also had a chance to bond with better people and real friends, who have and still are a big help whenever I needed a sounding board, especially whenever I attempt to make sense, or worse, justify, my actions. It was because of one of these very recent discussions that I am writing this note about love and the many variations of its definition. I have read a lot of definitions of love and have heard a lot of people define how love is for them. I realized that through the years, my definition of love (and relationships) has evolved, and that whatever current definition of love I had at that time depended largely on whether or not I was going out with someone.
After lying here in bed for hours I finally realized that because of the current state of my love (or relationship) life, I see love as not blindly wanting to be with a person because I “love” him, but because we fit. I see love as not so much compromise as it is a partnership of sorts – a medium where two different (sometimes very different) people make the mutual decision to be together, not because it’s convenient or ideal, but because they WANT to.
Maybe when I’m part of a relationship again my perspective will change. I am certainly known for switching ideas at the drop of a hat or for batting for the other team. But for right now, this is how I look at what love is and how relationships are built out of it.
